The year of 2009

So the year 2009 is coming to an end
so how did my year go?
Well,all I can say is that a lot of things happen this year
there are too many unexpected things or maybe I see it coming but just din take action to bother it
the year 2009 is really a year of transition for me
why is that so?
1. First time leaving family behind and study abroad.those physical,mental n spiritual challenge that I have to face,but I am glad that it's gettin better now.
2. Learnt to live with others and the skills to communicate with others. I may fail a couple of times along the way,but I am going to and getting better..
3. The huge difference of trust and faith. Experience great abundance of faith by the lord
4. My first 4.0 in my college life. Honestly,I couldn't have done it with the people around me,my family support and most importantly the grace of god
5. I learnt how to tolerate u and accept things
6. Haha,first time planning a trip!!
7. I must admit this,making decision especially big ones is really s tough one for me,but so far so good? I dunno
8. One of the most important lesson I must say,to be honest with the people u care about,although the outcome may not be of liking but at least honesty is there. It is ok sometimes to let ppl see the weaker side of me, and not brag along with egoness and self centeredness. I paid the price by not doing earlier, oh well, the past is to be put to rest
9. Regret is remorseful,but to learn from It is a gold. I did things that I regretted. It is too late to change things now. All I can do is let time heal the wounds n hurts..I guess it is part of growing up
10.let go of people that once are important in my life and accept this true fact!! People come and people go,do not place so
much hope or rely on people so much. The friend u know today may turn to be a beast tmr..it is hard for me to do it at times, because thinking of it at times hurt me.. Life~~~ a smile is all I comfort myself
11.the future is within my grasp,soar like an eagle under Your wings..guide me won't You?
12.expect the unexpected,steady and face it..
13.I got stranded in airport for the first time in my life..flight was canceled due to snow storm in Oklahoma.
14.God let challenges and troubles come to me for me to grow.so if He allows them to come to
me,do not whine and have faith

lastly,happy birthday zhiyu!!! Miss u bro

I am updating this with my phone,forgive me if there are many typing errors and stuffs

next year will be a good one

Christmas season is coming~!!

Semester 1 is almost coming to an end..

tomorrow is my last paper. statistic. i know i am suppose to be mugging hard, but for some obvious reasons... I AM LAZY!!

i am exactly 4 months away from home
time passes real quickly, without me realizing. it is Christmas season..this christmas i have plenty to be thankful for..

first of all, i am thankful for the chance to study abroad. to get a first hand experience of cooking, managing my own life, studies etc etc.. i am better in cooking, mixing with people, managing my time?(although i am still late for class almost all the time) haha...

i am thankful for all that i have been through... those tears,sorrow, joy and pain..each and everyone of them..all these happened because they were allowed to happen to me..to bear my own consequences and learn to take responsibility of my actions.. it is still hard to at times, but i am getting better...look at them as a hurdle that i need to jump across to be better...hopefully time will heal my darkened past. None the less, the future is within my control. *excited*

to the people of OSU...yes, each of u played a part in my tiny bit of growing up.. there are too many names to be mentioned..u know who u are... thank you for teaching me and guiding me..
to tittater and babater, GO TIBATER GO!! hahahha..... album soon..

to my family members, a huge huge huge huge thank you for all the support and love u all have showered... still remember, when i got back my thermo exam 1..50/100 , i thought i am in for a lecture but instead u all kept me going. those endless, encouragement and assurance really helped me... this christmas season, my 1st ever christmas season away from home, missing u all...*finger crossed for next summer*

lastly, the true meaning of christmas, Thank you for dying on the cross for this world.. help me see things in your perspective..to rely on you, to know that you search the heart and not the outward appearence.. thank you for this semester, for everything u have given me.... help me grow more and more..to have a life of abundance...you have been really faithful..thank you Lord


I LOVE U ALL =)

anyway, i better get back to my statistic



DEAD WEEK in library:




















my 19 years old tutor, eldrick SAW chia hong. Thanks for thermo bro




















pictures by cortney tang.....




















looking up the window, i see the Daddy taking care of us..





















look at those eye bags...but it is worth it =)

I miss u

your favorite songs lingered in my mind

tears began to flow down endlessly

u r gone for 10 months now

time like this

i miss taking care of u

doing exercise with you

i will look forward to be united again with u

watch over us for the mean time

i love u

The road not taken

Learn things the hard way
there are 2 types of people in this world
either u learn things the easy way,
or u learn it through the hard way..
the hard way normally compelled with tears, anger,bitterness, disappointments etc...
people dun normally love to choose the 2nd way..
neither am i,
due to stubbornness and stupidity,
same goes with me
i chose to the road not taken
i hurt the people i care the most
when the damage is done
only to look back n realize, i have done wrong
it maybe too late
this time around, i am ready to face the consequences
ready to take full responsibility of everything
even it means alot of hurt n pain
and hopefully
change to be a better in the future..
a real man doesnt run away, he faces it..
i am not gonna run away anymore, not gonna hide things from u anymore..

to those imposters out there,
get a life..
examine ur own life b4 judging others..
none the less, i dun hate u... time will reveal everything...
goodnite

When I am with you

as it time like this make me think of u
u really treat me wonderfully good
i dun deserve it at all
those times spent together
memories together
will remain in my heart forever
now that things are different, very different
wonder how are you right there..
do take care pls...
i miss you, i do
i wish things would be simpler between us

this song is our song,
when i am with you..

Empowered

11-03-2009
As the wind continues to blow
As the workload pilling up
As the semester is coming to the end
As the heart is stabling down
As i change,
i learnt a very simple principle.. simplicity is the best
As simple as my dinner, ikan bilis mee hoon soup with sri raca, with fish cakes and fish balls
i am reminded by the very basic of happiness
i do not need a lot of reasons to be happy
i just need few of them
as i was overjoyed by the dinner i made, alot of sweet memories came alivee..
i miss everyone of them...
too many to mention...
miss those times i had back at home..
miss u all back at malaysia...

朋友

誰能夠划船不用槳 誰能夠揚成S有風向
誰能夠離開好朋友 沒有感傷
我可以 划船不用槳 我可以揚成S有風向
但是朋友啊 當你離我遠去 我卻不能不感傷
但是朋友啊 當你離我遠去 我卻不能不感傷



to all of my frens out there, this is from me to u..
no matter whether we are still close, once close, very close or never keep in touch right now,
i want to let u all know that i treasure u guys alot...
yes, each and everyone of u
to those who is reading this, take good care..
to others, each of ur names will remain in my heart.. primary, high school, college... etc etc
i will see u all soon....
miss u all
<3


xiang

Blessed birthday kor

A picture is better than 1000 words.

Since young, we both never been apart until recent years

Through thick & thin, Through "rotan & toilet sessions" (of course u always snake your way out xD)

None the less, we grew up hand in hand.

For the past 3 years, we never really have the chance to stay together and i thank God for august and september 2009..

although almost 3 years din really get close, but air yang dicincang tidak akan putus.

miss having u around kor kor..

when u r around, no matter how bad is my condition and situations, i always feel so secure around. knowing that u will take good care of me...
i guess that is wat family bond really mean.

i am glad u r back at home, filling the roles u once left it for me.. i learnt to be independent here..

look forward having u back for graduate school....

lastly, thank you kor kor...

wish both of us can still play eraser together, soccer, cycling " competition" together like we once did back in kerteh...

i love u forever kor kor...

from,
Xiang

Simplicity of life xD

Has anyone even wonder, is life really that simple??

Not a bit,need to deal with all kinds of people..

the plot in the novel "Dr Jeckyl and Mr Hide" ran thru my mind, realized that the book i used to hate really make sense..simplicity just doesn work anymore in this world, the surface expression can be a knife who stab u right at the heart.a smile is not a smile anymore. a greeting brings motive and revenge..

Why life has to be this way?
Can't there be any REAL love, peace and joy around? backstabbing and gossiping are gonna make things any better. WAKE UP PEOPLE, there is more than this...

Once when we were younger, a smile was really from the heart.
a sweet chant of "thank you" was from bottom of the heart
things said might be mean or straight forward at times, but at least it was sincere!!!
when we are exposed to cosmetic "masks", life is no longer simple..
just like putting on a facial mask, we THOUGHT we look really good on the outside... no pimples??
WTH.... the inside is rotting..~!!!!
the mask doesn serve its purpose anymore...bare in mind, once the mask is old n worn, the real color arises...
lets start changing !! together we can do it...

life isn't that hard anyway... PURE LOVE is out there...


WARNING: I am no perfect guy, that was the reason "we" is used in the post...i can be mean at times, can be caring at times, can be annoying at times. etc etc.. whatever i am to u, at least I AM WHO I AM...... hate pretenders!!!!! and of course i am working on changing myself to be a better person...

this world doesn need anymore hypocrites~~!!


*peace n hugs*

Pratha!!!

So it is a week since kor kor left me and went back malaysia. Life is really different and loneliness starts to creep in whenever i am back from class or during class intervals. None the less, i am slowly adjusting my life here, with tons of assignments, homeworks and readings to be done b4 heading to class. i guess i have never been this busy since my lovely primary school. i wonder how did i manage to pull thru upsr juggling between academic and extra curriculum activities. woosh.. of course less distractions then, and mummy's cane to keep me at bay.. wuhahahha..

thank god i have a housemate who is sweet enough to cook for me almost everyday. haha..it wasnt that bad after all..


anyway, does the nick sounds weird to u??

pratha..wat on earth is that???


last sunday when housemate is away to OKC with someone very very dear to her... i was home alone.. =(

after church around noon, she left with *erhem erhem*, and i didnt follow due to my VBA, english and thermo homework...*mummy, daddy, proud of me?? i am learning to think*

when the stomach growls, it is time for food!!! woohoo...
i actually made pratha, aka ROTI CANAI

together with curry, courtesy of housemate...here is some pictures...

p/s: the 1st time i actually fry something myself....

















*yummy yummy*




















pardon me of some miniature roti canai, due to unforseen circumstances xD




















me fryingggg, in my bluee sexyyy boxerss.. WOOHOO











































Finally, proudly present the most talkative and "handsome" boy in OSU....
KANCANA......he came by and had a great time.. until "someone" came and kacau....anyway, lets not talk about that....
"dun judge a book by its cover!!!" this joker can really spine ur head at times... nyway, he is a great fren really.. thanks man for helping me "find" my wallet the other day....























Back to my hw now... and honestly, i dont know why is it called PRATHA instead of ROTI CANAI.....

next week is mid autumn festival.. will be gathering for STEAMBOAT.. should be fun.. but until then... it is all FOCUS time...

*peace*

Reality Check

No longer were the days i can run without worries

Run like i once did, run blindly on the field like a knight with his fine shinny armor

It is no longer a 1oo meters sprint race which was and is still my pet event when it comes to athletic

No longer were the days where a yell would solve everything

The once very hyped up boy is slowly facing the reality..

Tolerance, patience, endurance is all i need

to finsh this marathon and finish it well, with the help of my daddy up above

and of course my beloved and deeply missed family and friends

changes
changes and more changes

the once hyped up Lik Xiang no longer can choose to throw tantrum anytime, anywhere
in fact, the heart need to learn to swallow n stay strong..
to those who lend a listening ear...
appreciate each of u

i miss my comfy bed..
=)

i love u all

xiang xiang

MOOO MOOOO~~!!!!

Go cowboys.
Apparently, OSU cowboys is having a football game this saturday afternoon.
Too bad i am not able to watch our 1st match of the season.
None the less, better plans are ahead..
I SMELL it...
Anyway, this is my first cowboys shirt.
I have no idea why in the world i bought this shirt
As I was taking a stroll from campus to home yesterday afternoon, I came across a merchandise stall and it is 50% off.. Given my unstable state of mind yesterday, I took it without thinking twice...not to mention thinking thrice.. xD ok.. lame..
Guess how much this NIke cowboy shirt cost??
u wouldn believe it..
it is only 9.25 dolars after discount..
Kinda love this shirt

LIK XIANG
Number 1

I may not be number 1 in most of ppl's lives, but i am certainly the first in quite a number of ppl..

FRI...
time for trip
but for now
assignments n revision

GO COWBOYS...

Xiang

Is there always a sunshine behind the cloudy sky?

9-2-2009

As I dragged myself out of my comforter, it is 8 in the morning
The sky is not as bright as usual, and it is freezing cold outside
Just as you know, the weather at Stillwater is strange.
A cup of neslo smoothen my throat
Just when i was about to bathe, a soaring pain down my stomach
it is toilet time!!
clock is tickling away 8.20

I was late for Statics class and cos of that I didnt get to hand in my assignment on time
Not sure whether I will get a big ZERO for it
i pray that miracle will happen
A lesson for me once again, thru the hard way
I guess I am a tough nut to crack..
Oh well,
Went to collect my Football tickets just now
Gloomy day for me
Even daddy in heaven knows I am moody
Hopefully, I wont bring disaster anymore to others

Sigh

the question remains,
Is there always a sunshine behing the cloudy sky?

All right, time to get back to my assignments!! endlessly

Xiang

IT ENDS TONIGHT

thanks for everything

One stone kills 2 birds

damn i am good!!


xD

While others are enjoying themselves....

While others went BROGA HILLS, celebrated endless of birthdayS and outings...

here am i..

it is indeed very STILL here at nite,
but it is not too bad..
i am picking up...

as i always do..
slack abit.. but not too bad..
will pick up the pace real soon...

CAN U IMAGINE LIK XIANG COOKING~~!!! actually not really cooking, cutting chicken only...

Stillwater, OKlahoma shall be a place to LEARN LEARN LEARN n GROW... and of course ENJOY!!!!
























yucky chicken

TGIF~~!!

How is Malaysia doing without the noise pollution of lik xiang??

*gulp gulp*

THANK GOD IT IS FRIDAY~ now i understand y the restaurant is named TGIF.. fuu.. second week of classes done, i am just glad that it is friday. meaning i can be more relax (doesn mean i can slack)and take a breathe off my hectic schedule.

second week of classes are nothing much more n more assignment. Excel assignment coming in.and routine statics & thermo homework due too...

tmr there is a official malaysian lunch gathering..i predict it will be boring..i need to be positive.need to plan for winter break trip.. woohoo. i am so looking forward towards it...yeash!!!

not many pictures going on here..sorry ppl...
listening to the music used to be ours
mind cant stop thinking about everything
u wouldnt care anymore
i treasure u alot

Regrets

The best part of growing up is learning from the mistakes one made...

often times, damage caused are permanent..

sigh.. wat to do...

look forward and strive harder...

wasted,
wasted,

if only ...

if only ...


*chapter close, mind shut*

not gonna think of it anymore..

1st week of class

Life here is picking up

Malaysian food is still the best

Some varieties I dun mind

Assignment, quizzes and homework is piling up

Life is picking up

Si Tanggang homecoming..

Lik Xiang will be back....

whole new 1

whole new approach

adapt fast xiang
adapt fast

basic principals do not change

i miss u all so much back there

WARNING

EMO POST AHEAD~~!!!


It is time like this that i realize how much things have change

that things cant or will not be the same again

live life cool??

how do i define cool?

honestly, i dont know anymore

It is time like this i realize how much u have grown

time like this teach me to be strong and move on..

no more comforts all around me..

life is a maze

from now on, its only gonna get tougher..

never say never..

good nite to my fellow mates oversea
good morning to those back at malaysia..

not really emo also actually

It is moment like this i know who is gonna run away from me
The Fray- You Found Me

1 week away from home

Greetings from Stillwater, Oklahoma , USA

How is everybody doing there?? it has been a week since i left home.Sorry i din get to update my blog until now.. was busy settling in..classes started on monday already.
I received a bad news(or maybe some sort of motivation for me?) just few moments ago..
to those who is doing ADP/AUP or understand how american system works, u will get it.. or else feel free to ask me...

Here it goes, when i was at INTI, i tot my cgpa wouldn count in towards my reuslts in Oklahoma State Uni.. only to be disappointed by my advisor. He told me that wateva my results in INTI would account in here.. even LAN subject(which i only got a C for moral)... pretty discouraged now..

Kor Kor is here with me at stillwater for a couple of weeks. He really helped me alot in terms of settling down and stuffs...Bed jus arrived not long ago...


GRrr.. still pretty upset with the news jus now...

Anyhow, I really thank ALL OF U, yes u u u u and u for putting in so so much effort to make sure i have a splendid farewell. BBQ farewell, farewell gifts, farewell trips, endless of ooutings, numerous lunch n dinner datess.. each and everyone of u..time spent together hanging out.. badminton time.movie times.u guys out there really rock..i feel so blessed to have u all...and of course i am missing u all...
i cant wait to see u all next summer... tat is if i am heading back..OMG, i am being so emotional right now...

to special ppl out there, u all really will forever have a special room of isolation in my heart...nobody goes in and out of it... thanks.. i love u all..

a special thanks to my mummy, daddy and mei mei..
i miss all ur cookings mummy.. jus las nite when i tasted 1st homecook food.. only 2 dishes,a gush of loneliness crept into my heart..i realized how much i miss ur cooking.. miss hugging u tight and talking to u...
daddy, miss all ur nagging and advice.. although u look serious and everything but when i am around u i always have the assurance that everything will turn out fine.. u will make sure everything goes smoothly. over here, i am left alone to decide on stuffs.. of course kor kor helped me alot here...
and to u mei mei, er ge miss being ur er ge.. to help u out..especially now that u r having ur trials. Miss being the big figure in ur life.. physically there for u..none the less, i will be here for u always and forever.. time for both of us to grow up edi.. to come out from our comfort zone... dun giv up k my mei mei..

i love u all....

how was my 1st week here??
went to oklahoma city, which is 1hour n 20 mins away from stillwater. went to the mall and i can tell u.. even Mid Valley is much bigger compared..
this place is pretty suburb... oh well.. i will get use to it...
met fellow malaysians.. nice ppl.. help me alot..
campus is really hugee..OMG... even need to take shuttle bus to the other end.. but i am fortunate enough to stay 10 mins walk away from campus...
i am so sick of western food.. burgers n pizzas.. damn.... asian food is much nicer i assure u all..

I AM STILL PRETTY UPSET WITH THE NEWS I MENTIONED EARLIER..

sigh.. i really need to work my gpa up...

sign out...

once again..
Thank..


xianggg

BACK??

Due to popular demand

I am back....

with updates??

not really...

i was told not to blog about EMO stuffs...

Samsung star went by...
Intiball went by too...

SHall update when i have the mood... LOL...

Reaching a point where there is no turning back

Once bridged across

There is only a one way ticket back

Where boiling point is no longer 100'C

Where patience running thin in the air

What have I just got myself into?

Clocks not synchronize

To break free or to hang on there?

I am tired
I am tired

Just leave me alone

I HAD A BLAST!!

HOW DID MY BIRTHDAY GO??

OMG.. i can tell u. it was awesome!!!

Surprise------> surprise---------> Surprise!!!!

I shall upload another time cos i dun have them with me..

I want to thank everybody who wished me..who spent time with me.. who gave me presents

u all took effort to make my day counts!! thanks so much...

my last birthday in Malaysia in few years time..

i want to comment u all..u all did exceptionally well for me..from the bottom of my heart, i want to thank u guys out there..

Had the BEST presents ever too.. thank u...

Special thanks to :
Ken Seong, Fiona, Miao Shan, Cheryl, Xin Yi, Sin Kuan, Alfred Chan Yee en, Chow Haw Yee, Andrea, Sophie, Zhiyu, Tze Yi, Zhiwei, Yit Tze, Liang Zhi,ZAcky, Eunice, Hui Yi, Ui Tee, Wen Hao, Jia Min, Paulynn, DADDY, MUMMY & KOR KOR, Celine, Su zan, Phui Kuan, Benjamin, Caryn, Lyvia Jie, Wendy, Grace, Jia Wen, Jia Li, Jia Yi MEI MEI, Dianne, Kelly tong tong, Jared, Melissa Ng, FErnie, Thong Yang, Ju Beng, Ian Ng, Wei Wen, Eric, Michele Kuah, John, CArissa, Colin, Lydia, Khong Hern, AUnty MAry, Ying Chee, Ker Lei Lei, Priscilallala, Shiang Lan, Liang Wen, Yee Taz, Victor, vignesh,james, Ivan, and many many many more..not forgetting those who wished me on facebook!!

want to immortalized here so that i can look back one day..
Thanks ppl.. love u all..


the best thing in the world is to know that someone loves u just the way u are!!

Xiang

The Clock is Ticking

The countdown is on
Once in a lifetime experience
Am i ready to leave behind ALL and start a new life there?
As the clock ticks frantically,
I will have to prepare myself for THE DAY..
People to be left behind
love ones, frens, memories..
Oh well,
I guess that is part and parcel of growing up??
XD

Turning point

When i see the pictures of you getting ready..

with the hair black robe around u

It makes me imagine of our time watching harry potter together..

we both have grown so much..

but the fundamental principle will never change...

we still love each other so much..

As u walk up the stage for THE DAY..

as much i wanted to be there to celebrate this day..

i know i have duty back at home to fulfill..

with finger crossed, i will have mine one day..

u have set the standard for me and younger sis

Mummy n Daddy would be so pleased with u

Congratulation Kor for ur commencement..

Love u so much...

Happy Mother's day

Hey people, classes resumes as usual.. and this term i am only with 1 subject.. my fav--chemistry..

This week is full of joy. Last saturday went for a buffet dinner with sis at Shangrila Hotel. The place and food is awesome... Almost everything there is superb..My sis made my day..scroll down and u will understand



















Silly but lovely Mei Mei..






















concentrating in her masterpiece

















Sampatness Mei mei wrote for the waitress/waiter as well














On Wednesday, Man u THRASHED Arsenal 3-1...
And on Thrus, Barcelona narrowly ousted Chelsea on away goal rules..
(both matches made me miss most of chapter 12 of organic chem)


To every Mother in the world, i would love to wish u all HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY!!!
Thank you mummy for tolerating me all this while..
For all the encouragement,
For all the advices,
I am nothing without ur guidance and love..
Ur unending love for the 3 of us..
I am so glad being able to spend this weekend with u..
Mummy, I love U

So It seems....

it seems i am second ranked

it seems it wasnt the one i expected and wished for

it seems all my effort is down the drain

streams of thoughts ran through

FINALLY,

seal it with a big SIGH and a big SMILE

i am always the number 1 in YOUR heart...


semester resumes next sem,final sem.. lets see how can i work organic chemistry 2 out.. =)

Nature Love

Life is so unpredictable
one can never tell what tomorrow will bring
one may be gone forever
one may not be there for u anymore
What can we do about it?
Sob over it?
Why dont we let time heal everything, and see what we go on from there?
Learn from our mistakes and make sure we dont repeat the same next time.
Can temporary enjoyment really made us happy from the inside out?
liquor etc etc....
A good stare at the sunset is the best thing to do now..
No matter what we or least I am going through, the sun rises from the east and sets at the west...How wonderful isnt it??

Be happy always k...

Holidayssss

is there any more meaning to life?
of course there is
one week of hols gone, but i am loving my hols
so nice.. been seeing my Gfs alot lately
movie sessions, left 4 dead, lok lok, lunch, many more..
yes.. love them lots...

after few days of emo-ness, decided to get out of it.. tired.
live with a purpose.. nice line.. less more, more work instead..
got a long long mail from kelly,
OMG, so nice n sweet of her.. thanksssssss....

did i tell u?
i love the people around me...
each and everyone of them...


为什么?sounds familiar? =D

What a day

"I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long it'll last
I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough"


I have gone through so much

I was once a high flying kid

With minimum error in life

As age starts catching up with me

Shit happens to me

I let people down

Made people worried

I am slowly losing faith in myself

It is time

It is time

I am brought down to earth again

Semester 6- Inti College Subang Jaya

So, Sat was my 1st and last paper, cos i only took 1 subject..
Here am i, enjoying my holidays..
With so much of a free time...
at the same time, more responsibilities to carry
(passports, uni stuffs, house husband etc etc)
Reflecting back what i have gone through these 4months or so..
Calculus 3 classes are certainly more fun with the 2 of u
besides enduring ENDLESS of my crap and rubbish
u 2 need to tolerate my stupidity in MATH..(i am no fav of math)
and alot of "tips" during tests and assignments
Above all, u 2 reminded me again the true and simplicity of frenship
i still remember u 2 calling me for lunch after only few days knowing u guys..
i feel very comfortable with this frenship, which i never felt it for a long time. besides with my brothers and ice cream gang le.. =)
i certainly look forward to hanging out with u 2 for next semester..
thanks.. thong yang & fernie

Xiang

Smiley Curve?

These few days basically I have been at home most of the time.. doing my revision?I suppose so..
most of the time spent wandering off... to computer games.. to thoughts.. exam is few days away.. not sure bout my preparation...i really want to get an A for this..





A positive parabolic graph..



















can my lips always stay this way these days?
























As I stare in the mirror, reflection of myself
Things have change
How bout me?
Did I truly change?
I fear the beast inside me..

*keeping my finger crossed*
pls help me Lord

为你写詩

<3

A sunday of the year

It is easter!!
friday was good friday.
Nothing much going on this year as I was busy preparing for finals. is it only about easter eggs? what is the real meaning of easter? went back taman sea cf for the 1st time since i left in form 5.
this special feeling came back to me instantly.. miss my time in high school..
lunch at canteen was great too..
pris and sophie wore uniform.. and they still look like a small kid... *hmmmm*
Yesterday was daddy's bday, me n mei mei decided to make a card for him... not the niceest hard in the world, but with nicest heart around..
Overall this year easter was a timely reminder for me that Christ died for me and the world..
Be still and surrender everything to Him.
God loves u n me =)

Something in the middle, Casting crown

the tiny shower sprinkles down my body
soaked,
as the your favorite music was played
the complexity of my mind wandered of into the past
from the day i was born
those times u looked after me and cooked for me
those times when i would get scolding from u when i puu puu in my pants
those long hours in the bus to Kelantan,
squares and squares aches of paddy field had been discussed
those times when u accompanied the chicken out me to Tadika
those times u have protected me from mummy's cane
those times u comfort me when my grades werent that well
those times u would spur me to achieve higher and better
those times i spent listening to the japanese occupation happenings by ur side
as the shower tab was tighten
water drops from the edge of my fringe
together with my tears

i cant continue any longer...
i shall immortalize all our memories together.
untill i see u again one day, i would miss you
always close to my heart, my mama

Today has been a hectic day for me..
agreed to work from 9am to 4pm with zhiyu.kinda reluctant, but can spend time with him.. so okay la..
1st 2 and half hours was pure free money.. hehe.. we jus sat there and slept while waiting for GM to come in for our briefing.
started work at 11.30.. went for lunch at 1.. and continue working until 9.30pm... my goodness.. and guess wat.. i still have to bring home to do.. ..
anyway, today i got 125bucks.. yeash...

more and more workload now..
study
uni thingy
work..

off i go....
smell u all later...

LOVEEEEEEE

Gives u hell

Yeah man.. only 3 classes in a week.. tues is another free day for me.. no more lab...
finals is around the corner.. more study... other than that.. life is picking up.. looking forward for weekends and of course next week.. ngekz...

Here is a song that best describes me:
Gives You hell-All American Rejects

I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place

And your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far

You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you know where you are?

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And here's all your lies,
You can look me in the eyes
With that sad sad look that you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song and sing along, oh you'll never tell
Then you're the fool, I'm just as well
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along, I hope that it will treat you well.


Woohooo.... thanks for tolerating me people.. love u all

No lie comes from the truth

Last nite was quite emo.. stayed up until almost 3am..
gosh.. god knows what was going thru my complex brain..
this morning waking up with sinus.. great...
gonna shut my brain with calculus work later i guess..
to sum up my great nite..
to those who was in my life before
to those who are walking out of my life now
to those who are coming in my life
to those who will be in my life
and..
to those who are IN my life right now...

i want to thank you for all ur presence...
u all help shape me to be who i am today..
whether in ur opinion, i am good or bad.. keep the judgments to urself..
for i do not require them..

in barely 5months, things will never be the same again...familiar faces will disappear,people i know may change..
to those who are IN my life right now..i want to appreciate u all...one by one...until the very last...
cheers....



I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see ____die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt _____ anymore
I don't wanna take away ____ life
I don't wanna be...a murderer

Saturday blues

At the end of it all
when the curtain is down,
when the banner is raised,
justice shall prevail
truth will suddenly appear from everywhere..
will it be too late?
Hmm..is it real?should i pursue or let it rest?

2 Autobots in 1 week

BY the look of it.. u can probably figure this out.
Oh yes, 2 of my cars were damaged this week alone.
My Ferrari's passenger seat window was hit by something, a stone maybe causing it to crack and at last shattered..I assumed it to be the Mbpj's work when they cut the grass in front of my house.. caused about 100 bucks to be fixed..















Artistic isnt it? cracked, but still hanging on there.















notice the little breakdown edi?















finally, it gave in.. sounds familiar?
often times our human hearts are just a cracked mirror or glass
when it cannot contain anymore. BOOM... there it goes....broken into peaces..
so ppl renew ur heart everyday ya...















Big Big holee.... xD


yesterday,
after class about 1pm, went to monash to meet up with ks and xy.so we headed to giant for kfc..little to know that my lack of concentration caused me dearly. i parked at giant. reverse to park nicely, kononnya wanna park better.. a split of seconds, things were running on my mind... and b4 i know it. my car kiss my fellow Ferrari. thank goodness her car was ok... but my poor car... endured some nagging/scolding but it all worth it....my fault...
















quite badly dented
















poor little city



















today went to see doctor with mum and mr lee..
guess wat..the mechanics didnt even charge me a SEN for tat kind of dent.. Thank God..fuiyoh..
so happy... thank u mr lee for bring me there also...in return belanja every1 makan.... rm28.20 =)


lessons of my life:
1) be more steady
2) clear ur mind when driving
3) and LOVE UR family alot alot...

My kor kor..

When others are looking at things with a routine perceptions, u taught me the true meaning of different perspective.

guess these few years of overseas exposure really taught u alot.

When i was about to break down, u just know the right thing to tell me and comfort me..

Dont worry, i will take ur words to my heart..no more next time..

Will be better..

Kor u r the best.love u lots

Doors of Life

A question to ponder upon

if there is 2 doors in ur life

the 1st door is simple n straight forward. Open it and there you go...no more hastle

or the 2nd door, when u open it, it will lead to another 10 doors, and from there on, it is like a maze.hardship, sufferings and etc etc...then in the end.. only they wanna turn a big big round and come back to the 1st door.. weird isnt it?

So people, choose wisely ;)

what do i think?
i would certainly choose the 1st door cos do not ever find trouble unless trouble troubles you.

Life is cool by itself, but when hardship and challenges come, at least i know i dont have to go thru alone...


"but many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first"

At times, the flow of growing up just grieves me.

As i grow older each day, things in my life disappear one by one.no longer were the days when i can just wander my days off without any purpose, where i can build build sand castle by the beach, cycle around my taman without any worries. spend time playing football with drew n kor kor..

As i ran into my teenage year, i realized how much i hated it.A lot of things if given a second chance i would love to go back n change them. the whole list of it. firstly, i had to endure kuantan without my parents. i guess there was where i learn to be independent and be mean. not because i love to but i have to in order for me to survived and triumph. survival of the fittest.. kuantan was jus a brief chapter of my life. Petaling Jaya--my next destination.. there were plenty of joy and sorrow at the same time. More n more shits in my life, of course at the same time where i met most of my best frens now. blessings in disguise eh..

College life was next. to be honest, it is not as exciting and fun as i thought it would turn up to be.. u never know who is real to u. different frens for different class. some of them just backstab u whenever they got the chance. that explains y i rarely have close frens in college... i just cant risk it..at the same time, more problems creep in..

As i grow older on earth each seconds, it kept me thinking, what is that i treasure ? what is that i want in this life? faces that are so fond to me slowly disappear, fading away as the wind blow..can i relly on those faces i once trust and love so much? only time can tell..
one by one left..
soon is my turn to leave..
how is it gonna be?am i gonna be just someone that goes by?will i remembered as a hero or a villian?
to those who treasure me, i will treasure u certainly...
watever is it.. life goes on..

"life is predestined, but one still have his or her free will"

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow

Compare me with the one better than me, not those who are worse

so that i may improve and be better

Never look back and ponder,instead march ahead with full authority, like a knight succoring in his armor...

what tomorrow will bring?it is for me to go through with excitement and faith.

being pushed around will really on my nerves,but i shall forgive and be stronger.

love those who love u, and of course love also those who hate me---(kinda hard but no harm trying)

life has been challenging and loving and good for me recently
oh well, calculus test 2 is next week..
gosh.. better start preparing...
zack leaving tmr...
sadness..

"Earth as a passing by"

Edmund Chan

R u holding back like the way i do?

8th of Feb 2009

3 years ago in Golden Sands, Port Dickson
Attended YBMEW with zack, zhi and few more

Z was there for CYZ getaways.. hahaa...
and and while playing basketball..
this was wat happened..
















my right hand's baby finger...snapped...















"Y-shaped"bone















The engineer fixed my dislocated bone...



here am i 3 years down the road...
















1st time name stick behind chair in church...
VIP kononnya..


WOOhoo.. baptism~~!!!































me n zacky finally decided to make this declaration to the public!!















zack's turn















Yay!! die old-xiang















rise!!! new-xiang

















member of DUMC officially...



Things will never be the same again...

Valentines day

As the world celebrated Valentine's day, the day reminded me of LOVE..

This year's valentine certainyl worth every second..

not because i am involved in a relationship...

but because i know i am LOVED..

but because people around me actually LOVE me,

they made my day..

celebrating this special day with my fren and creator really was a great 1...

finally,

how do u define LOVE?

it is simply joy, peace, goodness,kindness, faithfulness,gentleness, self-control,longsuffering.

have all this and u will have the best days ahead...
trust me..

i din know u were so sweet..

i always have things about u

tonight u showed me something different

sorry for the things i have against u

finally,

u made my day!!!

thanks


learnt something today, do not close the door for someone or something jus because of some misunderstanding, misjudgement or because of diff opinion.he or she is not as bad as u think..
dont ever throw judgement or impression towards ppl..

给你,你你你的话

好久没写华文字了
感觉有点怪怪的
在短短的这几天我学会了很多东西
我也杆强了不少

考试分数还不错
多谢你给的支持，谢谢你！！

记得，
就算世界于你为敌
我答应会陪你度过。

最后，
依靠不是一种折磨，反而是一种幸福。
再见

Lega Hatiku~~

calculus 3 test was ok...manage to do..woohoo..
it is a thrus...and a day for me to rest..
yeap..
this weekend is a exciting weekend for me..
gonna go for my baptism with zacky also..
nervous yet glad...
and open house this weekend at jia jiann's hse.. will be a nice 1 gathering with high school frens..
life is more relaxed now...
ra 3 skills getting better too eh... hahaha...

miss mama at times...
always in my heart...

Cal 3 n 3 n 3....

enough of leipiz's name in DE las few terms...
when dr chan mentioned his name... feeel irritated..
test on wed...
heading to drain...

study study study..

ciao ciao ciao

"You are always at lost" am I?

ONE once said..
"it is okay, i always think u r at lost"
so it keep me thinking, was i really at lost??
i blame myself for the immaturity and the thrill of playing around..
guess what goes around comes around..
none the less, i have gained alot from everything that happened..

at time in life i really dont know wat tmr will bring..
For example,10 years ago i cant even imagine myself being in KL...thought i will spend my entire life in Kerteh..(how naive was i)
10years from now?
Learnt to live for the ultimate purpose in life..
painful past shall remind me of my mistakes in life while spurring me on to change the present and future without being affected emotionally by them..
thank u all for ur presence in my life...
and for those who r already in the circle of my heart..
i want to thank u all for being here always for me...
my family,my jie, my BrOtHeRs~ and 3 of YOU...
love u all...
Amazing grace will lead me home!!

i vow to bounce back stronger and better...

She came then She left..

She raised me up since young..
She sees me thru my adolesence and teenage years..
She help mould to be who i am today...
My vain-ness came from her...since i was 4, she will make sure kor n i look like a superstar when we go kuantan or anywhere...
After coming back from SJK Chee Mong in my primary years, the 1st thing i did when i came home was to sit on the dinner table and enjoy fried fish with my fav chili tat she made...
When i was 14...half a year staying with sis n her in Kuantan..
---Mum n dad weren around except for the weekend..with her supervising us...i used to hate doing chores...
The family moved to PJ ...met with a serious accident back in 2003.
---I was there to witness the whole tragic incident.
---God gave her another 5 years as she suffers from brecial plexus plain..although i neglected her at times...

Nov 2008-Dec2008
i was given the chance to take care of her..bathe her,exercise with her etc etc...
it was really a whole new experience for me... i burst and shouted at her for the 1st few days...
but later on, i have the peace and joy to go thru these routines with her...
i just love to sit down n watch her go thru her routines.the way she washed her mouth,bathe.. that is this unique n systematic way of doing it..
i learnt to enjoy the process of taking care of her..
i taught her this song while i was walking her
"walk walk, walk walk in the light
walk walk, walk walk in the light
walking in the light of God"

no matter how weak she was at tat time, she just wanted to exercise..we will spur each other on..

now tat she is gone, went to a better place...
i have no regrets anymore...
i am jus thankful for the chance of taking care of her..
urge u ppl out there....appreciate each n everyone while u still can

see u one day my mama...

i love u

will definately miss our times together.talking bout life
will think of u always especially during chinese new year
will instill in me wat u passed down..
thanks mama...