Stuck but stick

it is almost a month i am having holiday...before exam, i could imagine myself enjoying and hanging out with frens most of the time... but i guess this holiday will serve as a mental challenge to me... because i need to take care of granny... yay.....she is 80 plus of age.. after the accident, she experienced bracial plexus pain on her right hand... weak and skinny as she maybe... but she is perfectly fine up her mind...

well, all i could say is that mama is a very systematic woman....since young, i still remember the particular way she would comb me n kor kor's hair.. without fail... the "karipap" hairstyle... tat was wat make me n kor stood up since young.. hehe... =)

now that she is old and weak.. after the accident years ago... it is my turn to take care of mama.. basically "nannysit" her..hehe... my maid was sent home for some reasons.. and house r without maid for 1 n a half months until the new one comes....

honestly, i used to dread it.. each night before going to bed thinking of my "routine" the next day... it makes me sick..it is already bad enough when i need to stay home all day long... (except nite time) now with this... phew....

few days back, as i was sitting down watching her with her daily routines.. i began to realise how systematic and organize is she.. almost everyday, around the same time, she will go thru the same routines...and the best part is.. she can remember them!!! goodness,i cant even remind myself that i am boiling water....

so, i have decided to take this as a test for me and family.. taking care of granny needs alot alot of patience and tolerance.. i am doing it pretty well... except for some tiny bust up... patience level increasing... woohoo... and determined to be more systematic in life....more organized with my plannings...

well, that is it for now...
finally,

i love u mama.... thanks for everything..

笑我笨

每個人都在笑我 笑我不知所措
每個人都說我們不會有結果
不會 不能 不該有結果 .......

but i believe, miracle will happen..
meantime, year of allignment =)

life.....
full of ups and downs...
what is it for??? to keep us going.. to prepare us for the future? so that our life will be full of colors?? so that others can have at least something to laugh or talk about??

u hyar qabrws ri aat rar u ewakkt ri kicw y xgwetk
akk rgwaw qguke id kicw abs xaew ewakkt aooewxuarw ur akir..
biq rgar qw e icwe.. life fiwa ib...
qukk oeat doe ye sakcaruib nt xgwetk..
y aew rge ibkt 1 u wcwe reykt kicw

=) tomorrow will be a better day!

Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok


Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the past
I believe it
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice gal you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok


Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will


Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

This post is all about my expressions when pictures are taken...din realise how vain and nuisance i can be when i am in front of a camera.. goodness..

lets roll the pictures, together with some captions..


" u can continue with ur camera, i can talk all i want!!" =P



















still mumbling with the xiang theory..u tangkap gambar lagi




















time to get serious here..... at least a little bit...



















bended smile.... still not serious yet.....



















intoducing....



the horny lik xiang smile...nice eh..






















and 2 serious pic taken at 2 different times...
would not like to comment on my own pic....later ppl call me perasan pulak
credits to the photographer....











































"everything that goes up will eventually come down one day"

suppose to post this up yesterday... but somehow was caught up with the phone...
in the end din manage to update this post...
what is this post about????


RANDOM-ness... hehehe...these r pictures taken during outings....
haha... no idea wat is it all about...but yeah.. here it goes...
guess sem break is really getting the hold of me...

nyway, watched Quantom of solace with z,tze n ryl..so so only la the movie..d actions was too fast and sekabut.. haha...but a nice and relaxed outing none the less..

saturday, was excited all week long for Man u vs Arsenal match... ice cream gang went to giant after church to get foods for MA LA steamboat at zack's house... we watched and eat at the same time, all thanks to aunty cynthia who cooked the soup for us. the whole house was full of Man u fan except for Ivan... he sat alone at the arsenal couch, in the end, he was the happy loner... hhahaa....Man u lost for the second time... crap....no finishing and sloppy defense....

now, back to the main topic.....

random-nessss



S for superstar xiang





















light among the darknesss

















like this 1... love ur "neighbour" hahhaha

boring!!

woos ppl..this is only the 2nd day of my sem break.. gosh..
and i am already complaining of boredom.. this is not good.. hope things would pick up real soon...
last nite went out with lem, z, zack and wei wei... to sort of celebrate lem's bday.. haha....

went foos after that.. great time there... me n z won... imagine coming back from 2 games down...
so here am i at home on a wed morning.. nothing to do.. no where to go.. no where to run....SIEn wei...

looking forward for few things..
PD trip
Christmas
weekends...
new year....

so not looking forward to jan.....

peace out..

The door of room 210 closed behind me, whole class paid close attention to me as i took my seat gradually without even looking at the lecturer..

can u imagine? Art lesson on the 1st day of college? how interesting can it be??dreaded to college that morning..i have heard alot of Mr Bud, our art lecturer, that he is a boring lecturer and he gives free A to student... is tat true???i told myself"yeah xiang, free A, without much to study"

the 1st week of art lesson was good.. but Mr Bud left the best for the last... towards the end...unendless corrections, term paper.. studio... finally, it has to come to an end... thank u Mr Bud for all the teachings and encouragement... Art 105 certainly gave me an eye opener...=)



here are some pictures of my studio work.. i got 29.1 over 30 ok!!!


1st layer of my studio






















darker color.. the 2nd layer






















notice the blue background now??























the final piece of work... 3rd layer and touch up...*satisfied*




















the whole pictorial device






















Semester has come to an end..new semester will resume in Jan.. gonna make full use of my time with my family and frens...art taught me alot of things.. maybe i can be Picasso one day??? haha.. who knows...


today exam ended... dunno y i lost all my excitement for hols.. instead... i was moodless and quiet... for once... xD

sat down and reflected on my life... time passes real fast... things are not the same again.....i believe tmr will be better.....

close chapter...

with a glass of wine down the throat... tat should do the job... =)